I live in a trailer down by the river

I'm here! It's scary but good. The vibe is very good and my trailer is even called "Vibe". I think I'm gonna be okay here, at least for now, that's how it looks at present.

Maybe though, I should apply the lessons I've learned lately about illusion. See, I get excited when the present moment looks really good. And I just think that everything big and small is going to continue as they seem today, on into the future. This isn't always the case, however, as I've learned that I don't actually control very much in my world.

I control when I get up, what I eat, what I wear, where I sit. But of course, unseen forces are at play in the world all around me, all the time.

All around, the world is always shifting as people move, nature moves, money moves.

I wonder if it's the case that somehow, as I move through life, if I keep my own world smaller, my possessions less than before, my dwelling portable, then perhaps I can continue in a way that works well for me.

I'm grateful to be here. Everyone is so nice. And my neighbors are exactly what I needed. I'm extra grateful to have them in my life.

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