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I live in a trailer down by the river

I'm here! It's scary but good. The vibe is very good and my trailer is even called "Vibe". I think I'm gonna be okay here, at least for now, that's how it looks at present. Maybe though, I should apply the lessons I've learned lately about illusion. See, I get excited when the present moment looks really good. And I just think that everything big and small is going to continue as they seem today, on into the future. This isn't always the case, however, as I've learned that I don't actually control very much in my world. I control when I get up, what I eat, what I wear, where I sit. But of course, unseen forces are at play in the world all around me, all the time. All around, the world is always shifting as people move, nature moves, money moves. I wonder if it's the case that somehow, as I move through life, if I keep my own world smaller, my possessions less than before, my dwelling portable, then perhaps I can continue in a way th

Where will I land in my new life

I wonder if I can somehow remember that when you strip the illusion away from your life, it's surprising what you're left with. What you have left over, that's what's real in your life. The job fell away but the good people stayed and now I could really see them. Dan, Katrina, Pam, Louise, Rebecca, Greg. These folks are what really mattered. And I've been encouraged to keep going and to not settle for less money than I'm currently getting. I want to be appreciated. I want to feel successful every single day and I want to be thanked. I'm wondering where I will land as I move forward into a new life. I will leave this place, leave this job, possibly leave this profession. I'll leave this community. I'll shop in different grocery stores, pick up my mail from a different place. I'll color my hair myself. If I could choose what I would do, it would be that I'd work a job that gives me enough to get to my own trailer with my own truck

Coronavirus chronicles

This whole coronavirus thing is getting to be tiresome. We've never had anything like this before. If what people are telling us is true, it's as if a dreadful ominous super serious virus that can kill us is lurking on all the surfaces in the grocery store and every public place. This is horrible. It's like it's not even fully sunk in to people yet. I think this because when I go to the local grocery store, I'm the only person wearing nitrile gloves. I'm like, geez, you people are so dumb.  How can you not understand this? And it's all of them not wearing gloves, except for me. I don't get it at all. People don't seem to realize, it's not just that it could kill you, it's that if you get it, you'll be carried away in a plastic tent by people dressed in full-on hazmat suits. You'll be yanked from your job, which you'll hopefully get back after a few weeks in isolation. You'd have huge medical bills, and your whole life woul

On deserving to win

I deserve to get a really nice place to live. I do, I deserve it. I want my application to be accepted to be given a space at the Thousand Trails at Deception Pass. I would love that place. That's my Number 1 choice. It's so pretty. And the lady, Rhonda, is nice.

On Patience

It seems that developing patience seems to be in front of my path constantly lately. As I waited to hear from the realtor, I spun. As I waited to see my place be listed, I spun. As I waited to see if the board would step up and fix the eaves on my building, I spun. As I waited to see if my place would sell, I spun. As I waited to see if the buyer would be okay with the board's notes, I spun. As I waited to see if CGI would make an offer, I spun. As I waited to hear from People Movers, I spun. As I waited to see my offer letter, I spun. As I wait to see my Webphone change to CGI, I spin. As I wait to hear back from Natalie Reichert after forewarning what can happen if they don't get me rebadged before DXC cancels me, I spin. I wait to get paid, I spin. I wait to see if I'll be accepted as a renter, I spin. I'll wait to see my money come in from the sale of my condo, I'll probably spin. It rots. Why am I so worried that things will go wrong when so many things h

Sharing by way of energy connections

Somehow through my wonderful connections with other beings of many kinds, I've come to believe certain things about how we are connected via energy. David Wilcock talks about this in his Source Field Investigations book, which I love. It's a seminal work on energy. We reach out to each other and we connect by energy cords to each other. It's possible that the physical world that we see is representative of the energetic world that we don't see. For example, there is air, but it can blow like a wind and move things. It carries a temperature by means of water droplets in it. There is water, it has currents, it's a river, a stream, it rains, it pools and more. Same with energy. It flows just like water. I read in a book by a guy who learned how to connect with the Beings when he was in the military, that we are called Water Humans by the Beings he worked with. This makes sense and if you consider that we are the same percentage of water as the Earth is, it'